From a social recluse to a somewhat just ok functioning member of society

When I first came here I didn’t really know what to expect. I came with no plans in mind but just to show up. It was tough for a bit to go from a cozy home with 3 meals and someone to do your laundry to a desolate room in the shade of blue fighting just to get out of bed and feed yourself while also doing other things. It was overwhelming, to say the least for a 1-year social recluse to leave her room and come to a new country. I owe it to the friends who came with me on this journey. We never got to talk much before coming here, and I’ve never been happier getting to know them better. Shoutout to Jenna and Gail for planning all our trips and handling all the logistics you guys are the best. Shoutout to New for being my blood brother and sworn enemy. I’m excited about our next trip and the sights we’ll get to see. I don’t think I would’ve been able to experience the world if you guys hadn’t come with me.

Moving on to my experience here in Munich. I’ve met more people than I could count on my hands, and they all have their own stories to tell. It’s always fun to meet people but to be honest what I learned from here is to just go out and do things on your own if no ones willing to come with you. You don’t always need a friend. I’m the sort of person who has crippling anxiety that I can’t go to new restaurants alone or cross the streets without handholding. I have come so far, even showing up to a party alone (that is a behemoth task for an introverted person like me). Going on many dates with peculiar people. Getting the strangest texts. Even met someone who became my unlikely friend. Forgot to mention I got a tattoo all by myself! By a super cool artist who I saw by chance after we missed our flight to go back home from Paris after I got my phone stolen. I’ve learned to become my own friend. To take charge of my own life instead of wallowing in self-pity.

The city itself is a thing of beauty. To the brownstones and churches, and the greeneries it is always pretty out even if it’s cloudy. Although I do have some complaints about the heat. I did come from a super hot country, but we have air conditioners and skyscrapers that give us some relief (not that that’s a good thing in terms of urban planning) from the scorching sun but this place has barely any shade. I believe there are a lot more places a tourist like me would not be able to find. But for now, I’m content with just going to museums and places I find cool. This trip was one hell of an experience that shaped me in a way I’ll never really know until I go back to Thailand.

My lovely friends also made me a quest list and people I should date. I am nowhere done with the dating list, but I am tired. But I did complete the quest except for one thing which is to decorate my room. To be truthfully honest I’ve never truly settled down here I’m still living out of my suitcase my clothes all in there. I think I did it to remind myself to not leave a part of myself here by refusing to let it fully be my home. I know I have to leave, so I always have one foot out of the door. The people I’ve met here I will never forget. I will enjoy the rest of my time here 🙂 and who knows maybe one day I’ll find my way back. I love you <3.